And I Got My Oil! Whoopee!
Did my accomplishments and getting my oil Add An Iota To My Stature? …
Friday, February 14, 2020 at 5:07 pm.
Hardly, but! it’s only because of Your loving discipline that You finally convinced me to quit whining about the least inconvenience that came my way and go on.
It’s Past Midnight On A New Day …
Saturday, February 15, 2020 at 1:12 am.
Here I am. I written a lot in an email to Roxana since I woke up last night at 11:40 pm. Now I don’t feel good. I am cold even with the heat on. I don’t know what to do, what to eat what to drink. Maybe go back to sleep?
Ah! Sunshine Out There As It Is In Here In My Heart …
Saturday, February 15, 2020 at 6:30 am.
Yeap! The sun is shinning in my heart even when the winter darkens the skies out there, but! You give us a break from that darkness. You never give us any more than what we can take.
O Mine! Gas Is Waving The Signal To Quit, My Master …
I’m sure glad You are giving me a sunny day. Maybe there will be gas replacement today. Maybe there will not be. Either way? It does not affect my well-being.
It’s The 7th Day Of Rest. Resting In You I Remain Sunshine Or Wintertime …
Saturday, February 15, 2020 at 12:50 pm.
Been working on the graphic to illustrate the matter. You gave me the idea as You do with all graphics. It looks beautiful to me. Who knows but You whether others think the same as me.
Legend For The Graphic …
Sun shining on the Planets
Sun shining on my Heart
Sun shining on ALL Hearts
Master! Help Me To Truly Love My Brother …
Sunday, February 16, 2020 at 2:00 am.
The sun is shining on my heart, but You know how I feel when I read headlines from leaders that have offended me for exposing the truth. The thing is that these leaders continue with their timelines, and?
- I have not read yet one single testimony of Your dealings with them.
- All I see in the leadership is their pompous authority over many followers.
- Following each other, but!
- Not following Yahushua as they claim to do.
- Am I guilty?
- Am I telling anyone what to do?
- Am I judging my brother?
O My Master! A Few Hours Of Sleep Did Me Good …
Saturday, February 15, 2020 at 5:52 am.
As if You didn’t know it. But You tell me to always come to You, to come to reason things out with You, and? I have discovered how wonderful it is to answer Your beckoning.
Questions That Only You Can Answer My Master …
Sunday, February 16, 2020 at 3:30 am.
Your answer? Habakkuk’s Prayer. Wow! How have I missed this most important prayer? But! not to fear. In the economy of our lives You do not waste a second. Anyhow, now?
You Sent Me To Read The Entire Chapter To Reprogram My Mind …
This matter is by far most critical moment at this stage of Your Presence in my heart. Your Presence for real in my daily living.
Well? You Sent. I Went. My Life’s Onset For Me To Vent …?
Sunday, February 16, 2020 at 5:35 am.
Honest to goodness! You are leading me 100%. You led me to an entry on Saturday, January 08, 2011 (5:22 am). Wow! The consistence of Your message is uncanny. Strong words. they knocked the socks off my feet. Who knows? Those words might do the same for you should you be inclined to read them. Here is the link:
- Did I write those words?
- Phew! My hand wrote not my will.
- All I could say was, “Not me! I been a sinful woman. They not going to listen to me!” But!
- You said, “I don’t want them to listen to YOU!!! I want them to listen to ME!!!”
That Happened On February Of 1986. O me And YOU …
Me with the little letters. YOU with the capitals. Since then? You have had me vent out my sinful life unmercifully. Did my venting out my sinful life humiliated and shamed me? Not at all! Quote:
You [are like] unfaithful wives [having illicit love affairs with the world and breaking your marriage vow to God]! Do you not know that being the world’s friend is being God’s enemy? So whoever chooses to be a friend of the world takes his stand as an enemy of God.
Or do you suppose that the Scripture is speaking to no purpose that says, The Spirit Whom He has caused to dwell in us yearns over us and He yearns for the Spirit [to be welcome] with a jealous love? [Jer 3:14; Hos 2:19ff]
But He gives us more and more grace (power of the Holy Spirit, to meet this evil tendency and all others fully). That is why He says, God sets Himself against the proud and haughty, but gives grace [continually] to the lowly (those who are humble enough to receive it). [Pro 3:34]
So be subject to God. Resist the devil [stand firm against him], and he will flee from you.
Come close to God and He will come close to you. [Recognize that you are] sinners, get your soiled hands clean; [realize that you have been disloyal] wavering individuals with divided interests, and purify your hearts [of your spiritual adultery].
[As you draw near to God] be deeply penitent and grieve, even weep [over your disloyalty]. Let your laughter be turned to grief and your mirth to dejection and heartfelt shame [for your sins].
Humble yourselves [feeling very insignificant] in the presence of the Lord, and He will exalt you [He will lift you up and make your lives significant].
[My] brethren, do not speak evil about or accuse one another. He that maligns a brother or judges his brother is maligning and criticizing the Law and judging the Law. But if you judge the Law, you are not a practicer of the Law but a censor and judge [of it].
One only is the Lawgiver and Judge Who is able to save and to destroy [the One Who has the absolute power of life and death]. [But you] who are you that [you presume to] pass judgment on your neighbor?
My Venting Out My Sinful Life Humbled Not Humiliated Me …
Sunday, February 16, 2020 at 6:17 am – 8:38 am
Today marks the 34th anniversary of my surrender to You. At 3:30 am today You sent me to Habakkuk’s Prayer. Then, you sent me to read the entire chapter to reprogram my mind. Next?
You led me to an entry on Saturday, January 08, 2011 (5:22 am) to vent out my sinful life as in James 4:4-12. Next? You led me to February 16 of 1986. Next? Today.
You Answered The Questions That Only You Can Answer My Master …:
- Am I guilty?
- Am I telling anyone what to do?
- Am I judging my brother?
Wow! The Consistence Of Your Message Is Uncanny. Strong Words, But! …
Sunday, February 16, 2020 at 9:46 am.
Strong words consistent with the work You been doing in my life to the exact moment. Thirty-four years. Now? You are leading me back to the meaning of number 34. Quote:
Meaning of Number 34
The number 34 has clear access to inner wisdom. 34 is also intuitive. It interprets its wisdom and intuition creatively, seldom getting bogged down in unworkable details when considering solutions to problems.
For 34, alone time to think through a problem or to meditate is important. The number finds its answers within. Even when answers or solutions are found somewhere else, 34 looks inward to validate them.
It approaches life with an understanding filtered through its own inner awareness and certainties.
The numerology essence of the number 34 generally is comfortable interacting with others, although doesn’t actively seek such opportunities. Its participation in social interactions often inspire other participants.
The Basic or Core Essence of 34
The deep down basic essence of the numerology number 34 is introspection, finding answers within. Other meanings of the number 34 must take that vibration into account.
To better understand the essence of 34, let’s have a look at its composition and the number it is reduced to. The number 34 is composed of the digits 3 and 4, and is reduced to the single digit 7:
3+4 = 7
Thus, the numerology number 34 essence is based on the essence of the number 7. It also contains the essence of the individual digits. See these articles for number interpretations of the single-digit essence of the number 34 and the digits 34 is composed of:
Number 3 Meaning
Number 4 Meaning
Number 7 Meaning
The digit the number is reduced to (the digit 7 in this case) always has more force or capacity than the digits of the number being reduced.
The relative amount each contributes to the whole could be represented by this graph: :
Thus, the 34 essence contains the 7’s essence, such as introspection, intuition, and wisdom.
Plus a dose of the 3’s essence, such as creative expression, inspiration, and tolerance.
Plus a dose of the 4’s essence, such as pragmatism, conscientiousness, and a focus on building a secure foundation for the future, this blend resulting in an essence unique.
The 34 essence is knowledge of self. There is introspection and study and analyzing and accumulation of wisdom. There’s also imagination, creativity, optimism, and a dynamism that’s felt by others.
In social situations with a 34 present, others find their energy and outlook on life uplifted, their inner creativeness awakened, their future appearing brighter.
The number 34 has wisdom gained through knowledge of self as its priority. There’s an ongoing urge to accumulate wisdom. Perfection and beauty are important. Quality is appreciated.
Goals generally have specific steps associated with them for their accomplishment.
Imagine being intuitively connected to ancient wisdom and knowing yourself in relation to that wisdom. Both the analytical and spiritual aspects of yourself are known and accepted. Issues in life are approached with an element of creativity, especially when expressing concepts to others. There is continuing analysis of self in relation to events and circumstances.
That’s 34. End of quote.
Granted, This Is Not A Biblical Meaning Of Number 34, But! …
Sunday, February 16, 2020 at 11:01 am
This is what You led me to check out. It describes the essence of the work You have now declared finished. It describes the present experience of my life in Your Presence as per Your words You brought to my remembrance. Quote:
“Truly, My beloved, I AM in your deepest chambers! Nothing and no one can disturb you now!
Today is a very especial Sabbath and I shall teach you the way to come into My rest.
Your actions from here on shall be beyond your plans and ideas of what it should be done.
You will do the right and proper things without even thinking or premeditating ahead of time.
There will not any longer be any anxiety in your life even in the most arid places in the absence of human touch and care.
My Thia, My beloved, rejoice! Rejoice and be glad for your time has come to inhabit My Mountain top now and forever!”
And So? That’s My Life. No Worldly Cares Whatsoever …
Sunday, February 16, 2020 at 10:30 pm.
Ah but my interpretation of worldly cares! Is it for me to become a stoic recluse aloof from the basic needs in life? Nay! Nay! Nay! The truth?
- At times I had in mind to become such, but O how depressing.
- Other times, I’ll figured something different, but!
- I never could figure out how to live but not love the world!
- All the time You have been at work transforming and enabling me to live but not to love the world.
Phew! Saved By The Bell I Hear So Well Now …
Sunday, February 16, 2020 at 11:00 pm.
What bell? The bell of Your exact time for all to happen. The bell that rang for me on the last day of 2019. The day when the lust for the things of this world vanished forever by the power of Your love. Wow!
I Never Realized The Weight Of Such Lusts On My Being, But! …
Now I do. I do realize it. For You have lifted that weight from my beign now to be from it set free. Better yet? You have transformed me into the joy and rejoicing You created me to be.
Ha! I’m A Joy To Ahmad Even When I’m Threatening To Kill Him …
“Hellooo! I hear you now.”
“I’m glad you do. I need to remind you that I am out of gas since I called you yesterday. I am cold. I need gas! Also, I need for you to tell me at what time I am supposed to go to the welcome line?”
“Welcome line? What means Basilia?”
“The welcome line to welcome all to the death of Ahmad xxx!”
“Ha! Ha! Ha! Everybody wants to kill me! Ha! Ha! Ha!”
O My Master! Finally! You Have Empowered Me To Enjoy This Strange Culture …
No kidding! This strange culture has been nothing but trouble for me until now. It never fails. When I am waiting for Ahmad’s help somebody dies. That means 3 days I do not hear from Ahmad. Where is my gas or this or that?
“Basilia, my cousin die. It’s mandatory that I go to the family for 3 days to welcome all the mourners that must come to mourn the death of my cousin for 3 days.”
What about Basilia? Basilia could be dead but she has to wait for 3 days for them to come find me dead and I’ll have my 3 days of welcoming all to mourn my death! What a trip.
“But that’s mandatory, Basilia. I have no choice.”
“What is it that you all do for 3 days, Ahmad?”
“Well? The close family stands in line. The visitors come. The family must shake hands and say, Welcome!”
“You do that for 3 days?”
“Well, yes because different people come each day. Then you are not supposed to talk to or visit anyone for 3 days. You are supposed to mourn for 3 days. That’s why I could not call you.”
O My Master! You Are In Control Of It All, Why Then …?
Monday, February 17, 2020 at 4:03 am.
Well? I attempted to sleep at 12:19 am to no avail. Sleep evaded me. So? I got up. Continued my creation in Photoshop. Fixed my hair. Back and forth while Photoshop is doing its thing. And?
Goodness Sake! Four Hours Done Flew Past Me …
It’s a wonder how You work things out for me. Four hours of learning new techniques in the older version of Photoshop that You resuscitated for me.
No Kidding! You Have Resolved My Photoshop Troubles …
As good as the technicians from Photoshop support are, they have not been able to solve my problem because I did not know how to explain the problem. Anyhow?
I’m Fully Enjoying Your Gifts, My Master …?
Monday, February 17, 2020 at 4:01 pm.
The sun is shinning. Photoshop is working like a charm. You are giving me much needed sleep. There is abundance of food. I have gas. Ahmad and family continue to take care of my supplies the best way they can. And?
My Body Is On The Mend. I Am Comfortable, and? …
Monday, February 17, 2020 at 6:03 pm.
Finally! I started the dreadful dish washing chore! You know how I enjoy washing my dishes, but! when Your hand is heavy upon me, all I can do is graphics. Even writing is nearly impossible.
O Well! The Beauty Of It All? It’s All For A Super Ending …?
Your purpose for all written is to show that is it not about our self-efforts to please period. It’s all about Your faithfulness to Your Word.
- I for one? I get all excited when things go well. I get bent out of shape when things go not so well.
- Either way? Your faithfulness to Your promises to me prevail.
And With This Note, I Am Ready To Close And Post This Matter.
Much love to all. thiaBasilia.