When I Prayed For Forgiveness. When I Let Go Of It All …

No More Complaining. No More Rehashing All Evils Done To And From Me? That’s The Meaning Of Praying For Forgiveness!

Only Then You Shall Release All Material Blessings You Promised To Me.

It all hinges on three facts found in the last 5 chapter of the book of Job, Job chapters 38 to 42.

  1. Gird up now your loins like a man,
  2. Where were you when I
  3. But now my [spiritual] eye sees You, and I loathe [my words] and abhor myself and repent in dust and ashes.
  • Those three facts plus as this post develops day by day the facts found in Isaiah 30:15-23.
  • On to the content of this crucial moment in my journey in the Presence of my Creator.

Prepared. Ready To Bid Your Will At A Moments Notice …

Tuesday, June 23, 2020 at 5:31 pm.

I began the posting in the main site yesterday but! I done much editing that put stop to the publishing in the rest of the sites. Now I know why.

You Showed Me Further Matter To Include In The Post …

That included the changing of headlines. That includes reformatting and adding a new graphic. I am on the task. You are in control of it all.

  • Problem monitor since Tuesday night. Began handwritten record on Wednesday, June 24, 2020 at 8:07 pm.

I need to update all handwritten records.

Saturday, June 27, 2020 at 8:31 pm.

Will do so as soon as I can figure out what goes on with the machine. Right now I am installing card and all.

  • It’s now Sunday, June 28, 2020 at 12:01 am. Heading for bed. Hope for Your blessings.

When I? …

When I prayed for forgiveness. When I let go of it all. Only then You shall release all material blessings You promised to me.

No More Complaining. No More Rehashing All Evils Done To And From Me …

Sunday, June 28, 2020 at 10:31 am.

That’s the meaning of praying for forgiveness! Duh! And I thought I had to lay my hand on Ahmad and pray to You to forgive him! O but the height of my, what should I call it?

Sunday, June 28, 2020 at 4:45 pm.

  • I will now check the computer to see what it has been done in it.
  • Internet problem. Update downloading now. It’s 6:04 pm.
  • It’s now 7:24 pm. Update not now. Will update automatically whenever.
  • I will work on my graphics to ease my mind from all of the inconveniences of the moment.
  • Still no news from Joyce. You are in control. I’m worrying unnecessarily. Forgive me my Master.

The Day Is Ending Without Me Complaining …

Sunday, June 28, 2020 at 11:34 pm.

The day is ending without me complaining despite the fact that things are still in suspense. O my Master, You are truly my Shepherd, I shall not want for anything whatsoever

And So? Things Are On The Up And Up …

Monday, June 29, 2020 at 12:00 am

Starting a new day with renewed hope. I know You are working all things for our good. I am now living on today for tomorrow might never come.

Amazingly Soon As I Quit Complaining And Worrying …?

All things are coming together quite nicely. The computer is working better than before. The physical set up is now better situated without me waiting to buy one thing or the other, but!

The Best Part? Ahmad And I Relationship On The Mend …

Now, I am not building castles in the air thinking that all shall now be smooth sailing. No. instead? I am counting on Your wisdom to handle any situation that comes my way.

All Is Well. All Is Swell. No Need To Complain. Much Need To Refrain …

Monday, June 29, 2020 at 5:55 pm.

Whenever I am tempted to complain or feel sorry for myself, I heard and repeat what I hear: ‘no need to complain. All is well. All is swell.’

  • That’s the way You empower me to refrain from all my complains.
  • That’s the way You empower me to be still, to let go, to forgive myself and others.
  • That’s the way You empower me to wait confident that You are in control of it all.

When I Refrain From Complaining …

It’s amazing how everything falls into place despite my lack of the technical knowledge that I used to have. Despite my emotional upheavals.

  • The computer is set to perfection both physical and digital. The truth? No credit to myself or the several experts who attempted to resolve my problems with it all to no avail.
  • O well! I need to record the handwritten notes.

The Crucial Enlightenment Of The Last Few Days …

The problem started with the monitor on Tuesday night. Began handwritten record on Wednesday, June 24, 2020 at 8:07 pm.

  • I fell asleep in front of the screen last Tuesday night. I woke up to a black screen.
  • I press enter, enter, the monitor flashed, no video input.
  • Make the story short, not the monitor. the video card!
  • It’s been a nightmare until? I complained that Ahmad had taken my charger and now my phone was out and I was completely cut from everything and everybody!
  • Guess what I heard loud and clear?
  • “NOT AHMAD. I HAVE DONE IT! REMEMBER MY SERVANT JOB!”
  • All Scriptures You are applying to me personally. It’s amazing!
  • What happened from reading about Job? Peace be still. let go. wait. I am now waiting more confident than ever before.
  • Anyhow? Big hassle to get the computer fixed. The way they do things here is unbelievably frustrating. I finally got it a couple hrs. ago.
  • I know now the problem is with the motherboard, but they refused to replace it and I can do nothing about it except trust You word to give me back what the locust of my sins have eaten.
  • On Your time and at Your discretion all shall harmonize. Of that I’m 100% sure.
  • Joyce has not answered my request to send me my birthday money to pay for the computer card. I don’t know if she got the emails or not.
  • I don’t know but You know. No problem. I wait on you.
  • Heading for bed. Perhaps You bless me with sleep. It’s now Monday, June 29, 2020 at 7:12 pm.
  • Woke up at 9:07 pm. Food. Ate. Computer acting up again. Help, my Master! Will turn off unplug go bk to sleep. Now Monday, June 29, 2020 at 10:10 pm.

My Shepherd. My Master! You Have Promised I Will Never Be Put To Shame …

Tuesday, June 30, 2020 at 12:43 am.

You lead me through the still waters of Your Presence in my heart. You protect me. Though a thousand thoughts of shame and destruction churn in my mind, You are my shield and my buckler.

  • Such is the facts that sustain me.

Master? Much problem with computer. Help!

Tuesday, June 30, 2020 at 6:33 pm. I am not worried. Instead I am learning much as I investigate the cause for the computer’s failure.

A New Month. Renewed Hope. You Are With Me Always …

Wednesday, July 1, 2020 at 6:19 am sleep. Up at 7:36 am.

You never leave nor forsake me. Thank You for Your reminders when I feel so lonely and abandoned but! That’s getting to be a thing of the past.

Master? You Know What Is Going On. I Refuse To Try To Figure It All Out …

Wednesday, July 1, 2020 at 8:58 am.

Whatever is happening I refuse to go back to my old way of thinking and doing. I submit myself under Your loving authority. Thank You for empowering me to do so.

Master? Thank You. You Are Changing Everything About Me …

Wednesday, July 1, 2020 at 9:52 pm.

Not only my attitude about everything and everybody but my working habits as well. And to boot it all? You are showing me how to avail myself of the things that I thought I had to wait for.

Midnight On The First Day Of This Promising 7th Month Ahead …

Wednesday, July 1, 2020 at 12:00 am.

So much both good and tragic transpired on the 6th month. This 7th month shall be different. Already You got me situated with a working computer and advance knowledge in my graphics skill.

The Ideas To Illustrate The Message Keep Popping Up …

Thursday, July 2, 2020 at 7:08 am.

You have taken Your time to enlarge my mind’s opening to pour the wealth of technical information to avail You to deliver Your message of the restoration of Your creation.

  • It all hinges on the facts found in the last 5 chapter of the book of Job, Job chapters 38 to 42, along with Isaiah 30.
  1. Gird up now your loins like a man,
  2. Where were you when I
  3. But now my [spiritual] eye sees You, and I loathe [my words] and abhor myself and repent in dust and ashes.
  4. “In returning to Me and resting in Me you shall be saved; in quietness and in trusting confidence shall be your strength.”
  5. But you would not! and you said, “No! We will speed our own course on horses!”
  6. Therefore, you will speed in flight from your enemies!” You said, “We will ride upon swift steeds doing our own way!”
  7. Therefore will they who pursue you be swift, so swift that One thousand of you will flee at the threat of one of them; at the threat of five you will flee till you are left like a beacon or a flagpole on the top of a mountain, and like a signal on a hill.
  8. And therefore, Almighty Yahuwah earnestly waits expecting, looking, and longing to be gracious to you; and therefore He lifts Himself up, that He may have mercy on you and show loving-kindness to you.
  9. For the Almighty Yahuwah is a Mighty One of justice. Blessed—happy, fortunate, to be envied are all those who earnestly wait for Him, who expect and look and long for Him for His victory, His favor, His love, His peace, His joy, and His matchless, unbroken companionship.
  10. people who dwell in Zion at Jerusalem, you will weep no more. He will surely be gracious to you at the sound of your cry; when He hears it, He will answer you. And though the Almighty Yahuwah gives you the bread of adversity and the water of affliction, yet your Teacher will not hide Himself any more, but your eyes will constantly behold your Teacher.
  11. And your ears will hear a word behind you, saying, This is the way; walk in it, when you turn to the right hand and when you turn to the left.
  12. Then you will defile your carved images overlaid with silver and your molten images plated with gold; you will cast them away as a filthy bloodstained cloth, and you will say to them, Be gone!
  13. Then will He give you rain for the seed with which you sow the soil, and bread grain from the produce of the ground, and it will be rich and plentiful. In that day your cattle will feed in large pastures.

Into Graphics Big Time! …

Friday, July 3, 2020 at 8:34 am

What a day the 2nd day of the 7th month turned out to be. It started wit a long productive talk with Ahmad.

  • Big discovery! Ahmad is reading my posts and sharing them with the wife.
  • I discover the problem with my browser is a glitch with the Windows supper update they are working on fixing it.
  • That discover led me to work from the Windows default browser.
  • Fantastic! I was able to resume my work which I had not been able to do since the monitor quit.
  • How to resume my work? A fantastic detailed course to learn all the ins and outs of the graphic’s designer skill. Amazing!
  • I took an overview of what I am to learn while all reasons for me to take this course seriously kept coming to my mind. What a Mighty Yah I serve!
  • Then to close the day with a bang? Big surprise! My monthly monies came yesterday instead of today, so?
  • On Thu, Jul 2, 11:46 PM the notice in the email with the info to get the money. Wow!
  • What a way to close the day at exactly 14 minutes before the 2nd day of the 7th month ended!
  • I worked on the graphics until around 3:30 am. Slept until around 6 am. Got up not feeling too good but I confessed again not to complain.
  • Went ahead to take care of my plants. Fixed me some coffee. Ahmad promised to come but he is not here yet.

Even So? No Worries. No Complaining. All Is Well. All Is Swell …

Friday, July 3, 2020 at 9:15 am.

What a difference from my former days of agonizing with the gloomiest thoughts that churned on my mind against Ahmad and You and this whole strange culture You have set me in.

  • Now? I am already feeling better.
  • Ready for whatever you have in store for me today.
  • Much work ahead for me.
  • Will fix my eats before I do anything else.
  • No need to waste my time with wondering why things are the way they are anymore.
  • Today I hear Your voice to come into Your rest.
  • I hear. You have given me the power to obey You.
  • Thank You.

This 7th Month Is Significative In My Life …

Friday, July 3, 2020 at 10:23 pm.

From the beginning You have told me the book was to end on the 7th month. the number 7 has represented God’s completed acts.

  • As of this month You have completed Your work of creating a new me.
  • A new me ready and able to bid your as you see fit for me to do regardless …

Unbelievable! The Way You Empower Me To Bid Your Will …

Nothing like I ever dreamed it to be. Yes, all my dreams shall now materialize but not the way I thought it was to be.

  • Friday, July 3, 2020 at 11:27 pm heading to bed. No feeling good.
  • A painful end of my day still not complaining.

Here I Am My Master! Send Me …

Saturday, July 4, 2020 at 4:03 am.

Take the coal. Touch my lips as many times as You deem necessary to do. Send me. The aftermath of COVID 19 seems to be one of hate and shock but no change.

My precious children: Your so loved world are dusting themselves ready to mount their own rides to continue the rebellion against Your loving commands. Still? There is hope.

Send Me. Send The Message You Have Given To Me To Proclaim This Year 2020 To Be? …

Your restoration year. No matter what. No matter who. No man or devil can come close to thwart Your passionate love for Your creation including us rebellious humans. Quote:

Romans 8:35-39

Who shall ever separate us from Yahuwah/Yahushua’s love? Shall suffering and affliction and tribulation? Or calamity and distress? Or persecution or hunger or destitution or peril or sword?

Even as it is written, For Thy sake we are put to death all the day long; we are regarded and counted as sheep for the slaughter. [Psa_44:22]

Yet amid all these things we are more than conquerors and gain a surpassing victory through Him Who loved us.

For I am persuaded beyond doubt (am sure) that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities, nor things impending and threatening nor things to come, nor powers,

Nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation will be able to separate us from the love of our Creator which is in Yahushua Messiah our Master.

Your Loving Voice Resounds In My Ears Down To The Depth Of My Heart …

What a Mighty One of hope You are! In You, with You? There is always HOPE! And on this note You will have me to close this post.

Your love in my heart for all. thiaBasilia.

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