The Tears of Pain and Suffering. Is there an end? Yeap! For me there is….
Journal—An Ongoing Dialog Between thiaBasilia And Master Yahuwah/Yahushua. …
Wednesday, December 20, 2017 at 12:56 am
O my Father, my heart is constricted. I feel like weeping. My body is hurting, yet! I wait. I sit still. I write. I publish. I optimize as long as You deem necessary for me to do.
Your power and Your wisdom prevails. No need for fear of any kind. In peace and calm myself I find. Like a maiden waits for her mistress, so I wait. Nothing can stay my gait while I wait.
I’m going on. The past behind. The future? In Your hands. Perhaps sleep is in Your mind. You put me to sleep while You fulfill the covenant that I cannot of my own fulfill. It’s 1:12 am. Time to sleep?
What’s For Me? Time To Wake Up! Don’t Know About You…
I woke up. The time? 4:24 am is the time at this moment, but! The time to wake up? That time is now. My heart constricts. Painful discomfort insists.
Wait. Sit still. Write. Publish. Optimize. I will do the rest when I think is best.”–Your voice within me insists. Me? No longer resists.
The past? Only a reminder of agonizing days and my panic running ways. Ah! Maybe you could die. You must take care of yourself. You need to do this or that the voices at large and in my head went on.
No time to waste. Run to the doctor. Call your psychologist. You friend. Your child? Ready to that end assist. On goes the list of my panic running days and ways in this insane world amidst.
My present? Only a reality in the Kingdom of Light mentality. Where are my former agonizing days of running amidst? Forever gone! No more to trouble the peace gifted to me. Instead?
Power. Wisdom. Where from such come? From the ONLY and FOREVER EXISTENT ONE—YAHUWAH is His name for all generations.
Dear Reader, allow me a short explanation of the terms I use to address the Creator of all there is in existence including our beings.
Through the span of about 43 years? I have been reading not only one version of the commonly known as ‘the Bible’, but! Been familiar with several versions of such amazing book.
From the beginning of my reading? I been puzzled about the many seemingly contradictions in the famous book. So? I searched hi and lo for the truth only to gain more confusion about the issue.
“Quit trying. Start trusting Me.”
I tried my best to measure up what I had formulated in my mind to be the needed thing to please, period. Whether pleasing myself or the whole world at large, my aim was to please. The result?
I found myself more confused than a plucked Mississippian chicken in the North Pole. Naked and cold, my weeping reached the heavens.
The Mighty Creator heard me. He came down to the rescue. I heard that lovely voice within my being, “Quit trying. Start trusting Me.”
Dear Reader, you are familiar with the journal of my life. On and on the whole tale is written in such treatise, so, no need to elaborate on that rescue part.
But why have I chosen ‘Yahuwah’ to refer to the Almighty?
But why have I chosen ‘Yahuwah’ to refer to the Almighty Creator of our beings? By deduction. There is so much controversy about such a name.
The aberrations about such a name are astounding! People are stuck like mules in a mud pile when it comes to what they believe to be THE NAME.
Me? Father, finally, after much suffering with my own aberrations? Father pull me out of that mud hole so deeply set in my carnal mind.
The year was 2006. That was the year the Almighty chose to enlighten me about His name and His ways. For one year His Torah He engraved within me. Next?
Father inspired me to create the first web site. Next? On Mother’s Day of 2007, alone in a hospital room, I was informed of my bout with death, but! Once again, death was defeated.
On I went on my own merry go around doing my own thing and singing ding do ling, until! That famous day in my life’s tale, September 15, 2007.
What about the use of Yahuwah to address the Creator?
All that already on record. I find myself now at the end of the year ten. Now? What about the use of Yahuwah to address the Creator? I’m coming to it.
After one year of Torah studying you’ll think? O what is it that one gets to thinking? One thinks to be above all deceived humans in all religions. Indeed! To think of my former thinking?
No, I am not ashamed of my former aberrations. They are now amusing reminders of my days stuck in the mud pile of my own aberrations.
But, let me tell you one of the amusing things about this matter of the Hebrew name. I was set into a Messianic group. This group has come up with the most outlandish aberrations of them all.
Number one for me? “One MUST learn to speak in Hebrew!” Hahaha! …
I shined with such aberrations. Number one? “One MUST learn to speak in Hebrew!” Hahaha! That was a trip to say the least. I have no ability whatsoever to learn such language.
O, was I disturbed about my inability, but! I figured, ‘When I get to Jerusalem, I will pick up the language in no time at all.’ Wrong again. No picking up the least of necessary words.
In desperation, my cry reached the heavens, ‘Why can I not learn Your language? Am I not Your child?’ Down my lovely Father came to my rescue again. My language? He questioned.
“My child, I have gifted you with My language already—the smile in your face—My love in your heart. Such language speaks to all, no exceptions. Relax. You are My child. Child, you are Mine! All is fine in your line.”
Since then? All my aberrations about people going to hell should they refuse to use what I consider to be the proper Hebrew name have come to naught, but! Not His name.
The importance and the meaning of a Name….
Once I came to this region of the world? I understand the importance and the meaning of a name. Our Creator chose a Hebrew human being.
He changed his name from Abram to Abraham. The reason? The meaning of a name. Likewise is the importance of a name in this region of the world. Here is a short passage of the matter:
Genesis 17:3-8 AMPC+
(3) Then Abram fell on his face, and the Almighty said to him,
(4) As for Me, behold, My covenant (solemn pledge) is with you, and you shall be the father of many nations.
(5) Nor shall your name any longer be Abram [high, exalted father]; but your name shall be Abraham [father of a multitude], for I have made you the father of many nations.
(6) And I will make you exceedingly fruitful and I will make nations of you, and kings will come from you.
(7) And I will establish My covenant between Me and you and your descendants after you throughout their generations for an everlasting, solemn pledge, to be a Mighty One to you and to your posterity after you. [Gal 3:16]
So? We come to this day and time. Through the ages much has been rehashed about this issue of the Creator. Who is He? What’s His name? What gives Him the right to command and control us?
The scholars. Non-scholars. The whole world at large? Theories. Teachings. Doctrines. Groups after groups. The CHURCH as it is now established? All shall come to naught in a moment of time. Surprise?
You don’t believe it?
Well, it does not matter. It should not be a surprise because it all has been expounded and proclaimed through the pages of that BOOK, but!
You don’t believe it? What do ye know? You belong to the Creator or are you a product from the enemy? There is an enemy. Another matter. The point is, be sure:
Should you belong to the Creator? Something, someone, somehow there shall be a great moment for you to come to BELIEVE! May it so be.
Communication is a Must…
Well, dear Reader, guess my intentions for a short write up? It came to naught, but I hope this all has been written for the benefit of our acquaintance.
Communication is a must. No communication? It breeds miss-understandings, the Creator is now in the process to restore and enable us to communicate. To what end?
His blessings will not materialize until…
The Creator enables us to communicate to prepare us to receive His blessings. His blessings will not materialize until the Creator ready us to receive those blessings.
That’s all for today.
What a Mighty Yah we serve. His Love In My Heart For All Remains There To Stay For Eternity, thiaBasilia.